fan? (not the blowing type)

As I've said in one of my very first posts on this vox, I've never experienced fandom before.. so this whole thing is very new to me.. being that way.. i dont consider myself a hardcore fan at all.. but i'm still a fan.. right? xD

I think i've been way too overwhelmed with life lately.. finals are coming up the week after next.. and then i'm plunging right into another summer session of M-F 8:30am classes T_T.. so i havent had the same desire i had before for searching for new arashi things.. i find myself doing just the bare minimum.. its become so routine now lol.. but.. even if i dont see anything new for a few days.. when i finally do watch/see something.. that gentle feeling returns.. those five men really do have something.. and i truly appreciate it.. its like a breath of fresh air watching them just being themselves.. and it makes me fall in love with them all over again

also i didnt want to translate at all for awhile.. i just couldnt get myself to do it.. i get into ruts sometimes i admit it xD.. but when i finally did.. i remembered why i do it.. its not for me.. i can just read it and undestand it.. well yes its for practice XD my japanese is improving.. i hope :P.. but more than that.. its become something i do for other fans.. because i know how frustrating it can be to have something with so much emotion in it.. but you're unable to grasp what they're saying.. I started learning japanese to be able to read manga.. yes lol that simple.. so i understand that desire.. sometimes i wonder how it must feel for the fans who dont understand at all.. and have to wait for the fansubs on dramas and such.. even though i only understand about 80-90% of the things they say in dramas.. i've taken to just watching the raws..

but in the end.. the point is.. i want to give back to the community somehow.. all my manga/anime/jpop loving.. from waaaay back.. i've always been so grateful to those people who rip tv shows and songs and pictures.. they're truly my heroes (in a certain light xD).. so i want to give back to the community.. the wonderful and amazing community that truly wants nothing more than their happiness.. without be asked to.. even if not many people are affected in the end.. i still want to try and do my best to help.. (and i wrote in another previous thing that thats just my nature.. to help other people)

thank you everyone.. your happiness makes me happy :)
keep up the good work :D

(btw june wink-up arashi talk is like 65% finished D:)
(oh and i have the july mags too now ! yay for new stuff, right?!)